Maybe I’m depress. 

I’m in the midst of thinking if I’m really happy and what really makes me happy. I DON’T KNOW, I really don’t know. I keep imagining things that can makes me happy, but in the end it didn’t satisfies me.

I jailed myself, and my needs to be alone is getting uncontrollable. I don’t want to mingle with anyone. Once the day started, all i can think of, is how it will end fast. I keep thinking that it will be worth it, but God’s know how I just keep holding my faith to Him. My thin piece of hope is vanishing as the time goes by, and i don’t have any idea how to work on it.

I’m living but not really existing. My soul is nowhere to be found, and all I have now is my own prayers that soon it will be ok. I’m too damn afraid of what i’m feeling. It’s too much for me to handle… especially coz i don’t know the reason behind it. I’m so lost and desperate to know the answers.

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Hi, I am Lea Pearl

Working employee wherein blogging became my side hobby.
Creator of Living Her Own Life which aims to touch people’s heart and inspire them to achieve their own goals in life.
Writing has been my passion for almost 15 years. Last 2020, I made my very own website where I can share all of my thoughts and stories in life.

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